If one had told me a year ago that within the following year I’m going to get married, change study paths, move out of my parents’ home and move in with my husband in a city I’ve never been before, I wouldn’t believe it yet. But if this person continued, telling me that after only a short amount of time of living this new life, I would quit my newly begun studies because of studying in and moving to the Prophet’s city, containing the move to a completely unfamiliar country at all which language I don’t even speak on top of that, I finally would declare this person to be crazy and tap my forehead at him.
God moves in mysterious ways, that’s all which is left for me to say people!
There’s this quote which says that the journey itself is the destination and I have come to realise that there’s so much truth in it. The things we have experienced and we have went through ever since this one night in Janurary, when we decided to leave everything behind and take this blessing given from Allah subhana wa ta’ala, all these milestones we have passed ever since are immeasurable.
To be completely honest, in the beginning we didn’t even know whether students of Madinah are allowed to bring their wives/families to the city. Neither did we have the slightest clue about the formulas you need for the visa etc. and their bureaucratic processing (trust me guys, I never experienced such confusing bureaucratic processing E-VER)
We knew it wasn’t going to be easy but we were asbolutely determined to go for it.
We travelled places and met new people. We gave up and sacrificed things and rose higher. We seperated each other for several months and then finally got reunited again. We handled disappointments and downfalls together and got up again by means of Allah. But most importantly, we were tested by Allah in order to see how serious and determined we are taking this blessing.
This blessing. And all the other ones that it contained.
Being given the opportunity to study in Madinah demanded from us so much but wallahi brothers and sisters, with every effort we put or sacrifice we made, there came along another blessing from Allah subhana wa ta’ala! I don’t want to go into details that much but the stages we went through have been made SO easy for us despite the disappointments we also experienced. As I said before, these were just tests for us and if I look back I just feel ridiculous for having felt diappointed, worried or sad in first place because all I had to do was to stay patient and trusting in Allah for He would send down another blessing in the following time…subhanALLAH!!!
So now we’re here, Alhamdulillahi rabbil’ alamin, and I still cannot believe that we reached this very point. An emotional rollercoaster is just riding through my body. I feel excitement in my stomach, nervousness in my veins. I feel joy in my mouth and sadness in my eyes(the latter because of my family and friends I will obviously miss).
I feel ready - no I feel overripe to take on this journey. Throughout the last half year I have mentally as well as physically prepared for this.
I remember how in my teenage years I always conceived the wish to move to a different country someday. However, being in my Jahilia and being influenced of a same-named series, I thought of a city like Laguna Beach lol. But when I was guided back to Islam I krept dreaming of studying Islam and returning to a Muslim country someday - just like every (practising) Mulim does basically. And now I am not only able to stuy Islam after having put by this dream due to the bad potential of Islamic studies in Germany BUT also am I fortunate to study it in and move to the most beautiful city on this earth right next to Makkah: Madinah! SubhanAllah! I really have not the slightest clue what I did to deserve all of this, every corner of this blessing..:’(
So often I came across posts of fellow Muslims who show pictures of their Umrah, entitling them with how much they yearn to be there again - and then there’s me who actually got the opportunity to LIVE in the Prophet’s city..subhanAllah! Of course I would have thought. if at all, the first time I’m going to enter the Prophet’s city would be by the time I was able to perform Umrah (or even Hajj) either. So now thinking that my stay isn’t supposed to be temporary (in terms of the duration of Umrah/Hajj) leaves me just speechless. Otherwise it still is temporary because not only do we plan to travel back and forth between Germany and Saudi Arabia during the years of study but also do we want to spread the knowledge we will in sha Allah have gained there in Germany or wherever Allah is taking us.
As for know I am probably going to stay there for the next 9 months in sha Allah ta’ala until the next semester vacation. This…every bit of this just humbles me so much, I cannot even grasp this blessing properly, subahnALLAH!! I wish for anybody in this Ummah so badly that Allah blesses them with the same opportunity, Allahumma Ameen!
I guess it is time for me to go now - if I am not on the flight yet or even already arrived safely in Madinah by the time you are reading this.
If we make it there by Allah’s mercy, I should perhaps mention that I don’t know about the WiFi spots there. I do know that there are some on the campus but I don’t think women are allowed to enter the University of Madinah where only males reside. So I am not sure when I’ll be back but sooner or later, you will notice in sha Allah. If not, then this is my goodbye to you and I wish to meet everyone of you in Jannah! We must be prepared for death anytime!
Keep us in your prayers in sha Allah :)
Assalamu’aleyykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh!
Heute ist ein
kleines Stück in mir
und gleichzeitig neu geboren
and’rer Teil in mir.
Und ich wollt, dass ich’s verlier
ich wollt, dass ich Dich sehen kann, echt und pur und
abseits vom Revier.
Ich wollte kein’ Verhör, ich wollte Deine Seele sehen, Dich lebend seh’n
mit dem Schmerz, den Du trägst.
Ich wollt’, dass du belebst, was nie in mir krepiert war.
Es ist ein Tag, es ist ein Jahr, ein
Jahr voller Tage wo wir uns verstanden haben.
Es ist das Gefühl, kein Einzelkind zu sein,
so kostbar und fein, ist’s wieder in mir
Ich weiß, es fehlt Dir -
und da ich’s weiß,
fehlst Du mir.
Anything you have, Allah will give you better.
Anything you give, Allah will multiply for you.
And anything you give up for the sake of Him, He will replace it with something better in return.If Allah should aid you, no one can overcome you; but if He should forsake you, who is there that can aid you after Him? And upon Allah let the believers rely.[Surat ‘Āli `Imrān, 3:160]
let’s keep it in mind friends!
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